Use to be my sister and a few friends.
But my sister became distant and inconsistent with contacting me ever since she was married years ago.
My one friend also drift apart from me when she moved down state and I went very sparse contact with her for years. Last year she moved back to town for the time being, so we've been together again. But nowhere like we use to be. So I no longer confide too much with her aside from petty fake talk. Deep down, it's obvious she just sees me nothing more than a nuisance she regrets ever knowing.
Other friend has been very inconsistent as well. Got worse when her ADHD got bad over the recent years. She will go in cycle of vanishing for months to returning and being very socially needy with me for months. On/off. So I no longer really talk to her about much.
3rd friend is the only one I still talk to consistently. But I don't confide in her because she's kind of emotionally unstable as well. Usually just her venting and when I do, she just ignores me and talks over me. Once her venting is done, she splits. So it's mostly one sided.
So in all, I don't have that go-to person at all.
My mom however, is the opposite. She is the person I constantly have to assert massive amounts of energy to keep things from. My problems, my worries and stress. So it is quite of a hell.
The truth is strictly what the ones in power perceives it to be.
Enjoy any good things, even the little and menial ones, as you will never know what impending distresses could descend upon you in a moment.