Feel anxious when I'm trying to resist urge to look at porn.
First things first, I'm a Christian and I do not want to commit adultery by looking(and masturbating) at porn. Every few days I get an urge to do so, and a few nights ago I tried to resist the urge for as long as possible. My heart beats and feel cold and start shivering, symptoms similar to my social anxiety. I tried to go to bed that night and I couldn't sleep, so after a few hours of suffering I gave in and watched porn. I felt bad after I did it but biologically I felt at ease and my nervousness went away. I thought about installing a web filter on the computer, but it's a family computer and I'm moving away to college in a few weeks. My parents also don't know this is a problem and I would prefer to not let them know. But I have an iphone too and I think I'm going to have to let one of them passcode protect the safari browser on it. I just want to know if there are any other ways to resist the urge, because lying in bed just doesn't work, and I would really like to get some sleep.
The worksheets my therapist has been giving me, completely free here