I always suffer from pre work anxiety and now I'm close to losing my job
Hi Got a Job at Walmart about 3 months ago first real employment either then temp jobs. I have disabilities where I don't learn as quickly. My probation is up in 20 days but I already have two written ups due to my attendance because I called in due to my anxiety. Plus I left work an hour after I started. Like recently on christmas eve. I was scheduled to work 1-9 my usual shifts are 4-12 so I came into to work christmas eve was fine but I forget to take me medication for ADHD so If I don't take it I'm emotional so I was zoning a buggy in a department I didn't really know and I had a costumer freak out on me over a toothbrush so I got emotional and left work. My anxiety is usually bad not because I hate work its because I'm not fast as I should be When I'm opening boxes of product on the shelf I still don't know where everything goes. Like on friday I had to do three carts of HBA cosmetics shampoo etc. And it had to be done before my shift I was zoning all day and they gave me the hba stuff the last 3 hours of my shift. In one hour got barely anything done because the one brake pack took a long time. The manager was kinda getting a bit fed up so she sent a second person. Also when I gotten written up the manager asked me if I wanted to throw in the towel and maybe this job wasn't for me. I don't want to give up I want to not disappoint my friends and family everything I ever done I gave up on but my anxiety is even worse because I'm on the verge of being terminated on my probation and now I'm paranoid. If I do get terminated I'll be embarrassed because anyone can work a walmart job. If I can succeed at walmart I can't succeed anywhere. So now my anxiety is through the roof.