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The good thing is psychological issues are treatable. If thats your issue you can always treat it. The bitter pill is worth it.
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Doing meaningful and challenging things = no more depression. But like I said treat the psychological obstacles so you can move.
I have a number of projects on the go, all of which are challenging and meaningful to me, but I still sit around wishing I was dead. Got more obstacles than any one person can solve.

For forty-seven years I've put up with it now. I must stop Christmas from coming ... but how?
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You could still do those things. A lot of people earn degrees and advance education just for emotional fulfillment. Retirement is a great time for that... you have like 30 years left of life to go.

I don't think there was anything concrete I dreamed of in particular. I just wanted to be liked and valued, and feel like I belonged to something.
30 years is quite a stretch but something akin to what you're saying is a good idea. I don't have confidence in my ability to be in a classroom, though. But no excuse for not at least pursuing something online etc.

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I think my biggest issue has always been being unable to decide what I actually want. I've never been gifted with knowing specifically what my dream was, or is, what I want to do. It seems I spend all my time sifting through a collection of idea's that turn into hobbies.
Yeah, I do something similar except I don't really even settle on hobbies at all. Hobbies in and of themselves are valuable I think. So hopefully you get some satisfaction out of them and maybe one or two of them might even evolve into something more?

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I always thought i'd really enjoy being a bike mechanic. I always hated bike shops(most people who go there and work there can be elitist, in my experience) though and because of that have slowly become self reliant for all of my bike work. Thank goodness for the internet for parts. But in a perfect world I think I would have loved it. It's a job people do because they love bikes, and not for the money, although i'm in retail right now not making tons of money either so it wouldn't be that much different. At the very least i'd like to put on a cycling event of some kind. I am great at making great routes and riding them. Organizing volunteers and marketing and parking and permits and insurance etc, etc, not so much. Don't even have a facebook account ffs. But at least I have gotten to a place in my life where just going to an event is no longer a super stressful ordeal. I still get anxiety but most of it is normal race jitters stuff.
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Yes. I sometimes just wonder, usually with anyone with a professional job, could I do that? I mean.. what would it take. I suppose there's this lady who is classic upper management where I work. 90% of what she does is schmooze with other managers and talk on the phone. It baffles me. Yet she must have a pretty good income and her kids are probably on their way to college, idk.. I didn't so much have a dream but felt like I have/had potential in different language or maybe medicine or psychology. At this point, one of the few things I can truly transform is my body so.. there's that.

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Yes. I sometimes just wonder, usually with anyone with a professional job, could I do that? I mean.. what would it take. I suppose there's this lady who is classic upper management where I work. 90% of what she does is schmooze with other managers and talk on the phone. It baffles me. Yet she must have a pretty good income and her kids are probably on their way to college, idk.. I didn't so much have a dream but felt like I have/had potential in different language or maybe medicine or psychology. At this point, one of the few things I can truly transform is my body so.. there's that.

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The guy looks familiar for some reason. Maybe it was from the forum adds?

Do you ever find yourself watching people who are "successful" and feeling, in your heart, like you are at least as smart and capable? But then you think about testing your theory out and you run into a brick wall so you maybe start to believe you're fooling yourself? I've been doing that for too many years.

...you gotta keep the goal in mind, develop tunnel vision to a certain extent. it's hard, and it's not for everyone.

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Do you ever find yourself watching people who are "successful" and feeling, in your heart, like you are at least as smart and capable? But then you think about testing your theory out and you run into a brick wall so you maybe start to believe you're fooling yourself? I've been doing that for too many years.
I think I'm way smarter and more talented than I am. It's easy to find fault with other people's work and at the same time miss everything they get right. But results don't lie, y'know. If I want to know how smart/talented I am, all I have to do is look at my own sales statistics.

I wasn't anywhere close to being an A student, so I don't even know why I ever thought I was smart. Probably some kind of defense mechanism. But I keep pluggin' away anyway. Nothing else I can do.

For forty-seven years I've put up with it now. I must stop Christmas from coming ... but how?
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Yes. I sometimes just wonder, usually with anyone with a professional job, could I do that? I mean.. what would it take. I suppose there's this lady who is classic upper management where I work. 90% of what she does is schmooze with other managers and talk on the phone. It baffles me. Yet she must have a pretty good income and her kids are probably on their way to college, idk.. I didn't so much have a dream but felt like I have/had potential in different language or maybe medicine or psychology. At this point, one of the few things I can truly transform is my body so.. there's that.

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Do you ever find yourself watching people who are "successful" and feeling, in your heart, like you are at least as smart and capable? But then you think about testing your theory out and you run into a brick wall so you maybe start to believe you're fooling yourself? I've been doing that for too many years.
I can always tell that I wouldn't have been able to do it before I get started. I know I'm smart enough (or at least I used to be), but the capability bit gets a bit tricky pretty quickly with me. I can't hold things together long enough to put my books on the internet so I can just imagine how I'd go at a job nowadays. Good grief.

Edit: I might try again though when I get on new medication.
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I think I'm way smarter and more talented than I am. It's easy to find fault with other people's work and at the same time miss everything they get right. But results don't lie, y'know. If I want to know how smart/talented I am, all I have to do is look at my own sales statistics.

I wasn't anywhere close to being an A student, so I don't even know why I ever thought I was smart. Probably some kind of defense mechanism. But I keep pluggin' away anyway. Nothing else I can do.
No, you're definitely very smart. I can tell - it's very obvious.

I was actually an "A" student. (hard to believe now probably. I got an HD average at University - I was always extremely good at studying. But in the scheme of things it doesn't matter much if you can't hold it together or you get incredibly anxious.

It's more to do with your mental health issues I'd say. I don't think you should base the sales of your writing on how clever you think you are.
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I think I'm way smarter and more talented than I am. It's easy to find fault with other people's work and at the same time miss everything they get right. But results don't lie, y'know. If I want to know how smart/talented I am, all I have to do is look at my own sales statistics.

I wasn't anywhere close to being an A student, so I don't even know why I ever thought I was smart. Probably some kind of defense mechanism. But I keep pluggin' away anyway. Nothing else I can do.
You have knowledge and you're able to apply knowledge (for instance, in discourse here) so no question you're very smart. But, of course, you're a lot more than that. And smart enough to know that intelligence and talent don't necessarily translate into sales. (insert millions of undiscovered artists, thinkers).

You wrote a blog some time back (my memory is not good) but I want to say it was about a woman in a castle as a metaphor for pain, maybe? I wish I could recall the details and I might be way off but I never forgot the feeling it left me with and how it touched me. It became obvious to me that you are a great writer.

I use the "results don't lie" argument a lot. I don't think I know how NOT to. I guess it's valid in its own way but there must be more to the story.

...you gotta keep the goal in mind, develop tunnel vision to a certain extent. it's hard, and it's not for everyone.

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I would love to be a strength coach for college athletes or even at a large gym where strength training was popular. I'm not really cut out for college unfortunately. Tried going twice when I was younger. I can make the grades pretty easily, it's just classrooms make me uncomfortable and I'm completely unable to speak in front of groups. Lately I've been thinking of taking online classes, I just don't know about trying to get into something new in my mid 30's.

I don't hate my current job, but I'm not passionate about it. It's just something that pays the bills. I love the gym and it would be a dream to get paid for it. Even training regular people wouldn't be too bad, although I would prefer ones that are more serious about it. Looking at the pay though it wouldn't be any better than driving jobs and I'd have to pay for getting a degree and invest all that time, so I'm not sure if it's worth it or not.
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well im only 16 so i can still go after my dream i hope

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@harrison @kesker Well, I've been writing for about 8 years now, have over 60 stories/novels, and I'm still not selling anything. I'm the least-successful author in my field that I know of, based on rankings and reviews (of which there are next to none). I'm not aware of having a single fan (my friend doesn't count). And it's not because I'm some misunderstood genius. My stuff is cheap commercialism. It's just too weird (and I guess not very well written) to appeal to anyone but myself.

I mean, how much proof do you need that you're not good at something? And yet (and this is the point) I somehow manage to convince myself to keep going. I get some crazy idea, and think I'm going to have some kind of breakthrough, but it never works out. I've run into that brick wall so many times I'd have to be delusional not to realize that I'm fooling myself. I don't have whatever it takes. But I'm not good at anything else, so what choice do I have?

It seems a bit weird to call yourself smart if you're bad at everything. I mean, what is intelligence then anyway?

For forty-seven years I've put up with it now. I must stop Christmas from coming ... but how?
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@harrison @kesker Well, I've been writing for about 8 years now, have over 60 stories/novels, and I'm still not selling anything. I'm the least-successful author in my field that I know of, based on rankings and reviews (of which there are next to none). I'm not aware of having a single fan (my friend doesn't count). And it's not because I'm some misunderstood genius. My stuff is cheap commercialism. It's just too weird (and I guess not very well written) to appeal to anyone but myself.

I mean, how much proof do you need that you're not good at something? And yet (and this is the point) I somehow manage to convince myself to keep going. I get some crazy idea, and think I'm going to have some kind of breakthrough, but it never works out. I've run into that brick wall so many times I'd have to be delusional not to realize that I'm fooling myself. I don't have whatever it takes. But I'm not good at anything else, so what choice do I have?

It seems a bit weird to call yourself smart if you're bad at everything. I mean, what is intelligence then anyway?
I see intelligence as the ability to analyse information in a critical way and draw conclusions from it.

You say you're bad at everything but you can't possibly know that for a fact. Your writing doesn't sell well but that has nothing at all to do with your intelligence. It says more about your writing and how people receive it.

I'm fairly sure that given the right circumstances you'd be able to do a college degree with very little effort. I say given the right circumstances because I know with me things like just staying in the classroom were the main problem - or worrying about how I'd give a presentation for a tutorial. The actual work was very rarely difficult.
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I would love to be a strength coach for college athletes or even at a large gym where strength training was popular. I'm not really cut out for college unfortunately. Tried going twice when I was younger. I can make the grades pretty easily, it's just classrooms make me uncomfortable and I'm completely unable to speak in front of groups. Lately I've been thinking of taking online classes, I just don't know about trying to get into something new in my mid 30's.

I don't hate my current job, but I'm not passionate about it. It's just something that pays the bills. I love the gym and it would be a dream to get paid for it. Even training regular people wouldn't be too bad, although I would prefer ones that are more serious about it. Looking at the pay though it wouldn't be any better than driving jobs and I'd have to pay for getting a degree and invest all that time, so I'm not sure if it's worth it or not.
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Jut my two cents: I worked a job I did not like for my entire life. It was drudgery. I had a couple chances to switch but, much like you, I couldn't get past talking in groups and being in a classroom situation (made four stabs at college). By the time I got in my thirties and thought about doing something different I had sort of given up. I didn't explore all the possibilities. And I regret it.

Perhaps being a trainer might lend itself to part time? That way you could keep your regular job and do something you love on the side with the possibility of it turning into something more? Just a thought.

...you gotta keep the goal in mind, develop tunnel vision to a certain extent. it's hard, and it's not for everyone.

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well im only 16 so i can still go after my dream i hope
Thank you. I needed a dose of optimism and hope this morning. Yes, of course you can. And I wish you well with it.

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@harrison @kesker Well, I've been writing for about 8 years now, have over 60 stories/novels, and I'm still not selling anything. I'm the least-successful author in my field that I know of, based on rankings and reviews (of which there are next to none). I'm not aware of having a single fan (my friend doesn't count). And it's not because I'm some misunderstood genius. My stuff is cheap commercialism. It's just too weird (and I guess not very well written) to appeal to anyone but myself.

I mean, how much proof do you need that you're not good at something? And yet (and this is the point) I somehow manage to convince myself to keep going. I get some crazy idea, and think I'm going to have some kind of breakthrough, but it never works out. I've run into that brick wall so many times I'd have to be delusional not to realize that I'm fooling myself. I don't have whatever it takes. But I'm not good at anything else, so what choice do I have?
None of us like failure. But you'll be more miserable never taking a chance than taking a chance and having it not work out. The key is not interpreting failure as BEING a failure (sometimes easier said than done).

Keep writing if you enjoy it. Success may follow and you may get good at it. But if not at least you have something that you enjoyed spending your time doing
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