Crippling depression out of nowhere?
I was prescribed Lyrica for fibromyalgia recently and experienced a number of ugly symptoms and was taken off of it a couple days ago but I seem to have crippling depression the past few days. I drink with my painkillers and benzos. I take them with muscle relaxants. I feel as though nothing will ever be right again. I’m so depressed and maybe I just feel neglected by people I want to talk to the most.
I really don’t know what to do. I wish I did. I wish I could fall asleep at a reasonable hour, wake up at a reasonable hour, actually feel joy in the things I do. But I don’t. And I wish it would pass. I haven’t taken my Wellbutrin or my Lexapro in a couple weeks, around the time I started the Lyrica, I just take the Klonopin every day and that’s mostly because I get chills if I don’t. Maybe if I take those again they’ll start to help?
Nothing seems right to me right now. And I know how narcissistic that sounds given the state of the world right now and I hate myself for that. I’ve always gotten my self esteem from my writing and from helping others. But now my writing I feel is **** even when others say it’s not and there’s simply too many people in my life who need help and I don’t have the resources for it.