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post #1 of 4 (permalink) Old 03-15-2009, 08:45 PM Thread Starter
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craving what you fear


You know what I hate, craving social interaction/conversation but being too scared to actively pursue it. Almost everyone that gets to know me tells me I'm one of the funniest people they've met, so I only feel validated as a person when I'm talking to other people and making them laugh, but as we all know, the SA makes it so hard to actively pursue social interaction with others that when I am not in a school or work environment, I can't do it.

I was supposed to go to the beach with a good friend today but when I woke up, I couldn't even bring myself to text her to see if she still wanted to go with me. I talked about going places for spring break with a bunch of people over the last month, but now that it's here, i just cannot bring myself to follow up with any of them out of fear of rejection or something. I sat at home alone today, all day, sad and miserable that I couldn't be out in the sun having the fun I knew I would be having if I could just make a call. The idea of calling up one of my friends from work or school is absolutely out of the question, and even sending a text message is psychological torture for me.

I love being with people, I love conversing with others and making people laugh, and I love feeling good about myself around people who like me, but when the situation isn't right in my face, like in the small store I work at or at the university I go to, I can't do it, the fear is way too strong. If i have nothing to do on a day off, I will stay in bed all day, on the computer, watching TV, and eating. At 20 years old, this is not the way I want to be living my life. I am on the eve of my very last spring break as a college kid and already have the feeling that I am going to be laying around at home for four days straight. It sucks.
I know I'm posting this in the 'Coping' section, so I guess i wanna know how to reconcile this enormous hunger for social interaction with my severe SA.
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You know what I hate, craving social interaction/conversation but being too scared to actively pursue it. Almost everyone that gets to know me tells me I'm one of the funniest people they've met, so I only feel validated as a person when I'm talking to other people and making them laugh, but as we all know, the SA makes it so hard to actively pursue social interaction with others that when I am not in a school or work environment, I can't do it.
This is the exact same way as me! I crave social contact and to make people laugh and am good at it, but I'm too scared to do it. The only time I ever really did it was with the kids in my college's theater group, but only after I got to know them. Now I have nobody.

At least you have friends. And a job. And are going to school. I have nowhere to go and nobody to go with.

By the way I like Tegan and Sara too! (the screen name is a song by them for those who don't know)
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I don't think it is craving what you fear so much as craving what you do not have. The fear is just the reason why you do not have it. I think many of us here (including me) have this problem and we all want to get through it. I guess what I'm saying is, I don't really know what can be done about this, but you are not alone in your struggle.
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At least you have friends. And a job. And are going to school. I have nowhere to go and nobody to go with.

By the way I like Tegan and Sara too! (the screen name is a song by them for those who don't know)
yeah, im graduating in April so a lot of that is gonna evaporate and I'm afraid life is gonna be filled of days just like today.
and T&S are phenomenal, they've helped me through plentyyyy rough nights
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