I'm the same way (except not with texts)...it's just that I've gotten so used to any social interaction I get ending up badly that the fear has overriden my desire to interact with others, so while on the one hand I sit there craving for somebody to get in touch with me, on the other hand I'm dreading the same thing.
When I first came online, before I'd had all these bad Internet experiences, I was REALLY sociable, sending long e-mails, posting frequently to lots of forums, longing for feedback, trying so hard to be a social butterfly and get noticed on lots of sites...I just wanted so badly to belong and to be noticed...ugh, was I stupid.
All I got was a lot of pain. The stupid thing is, I went through this again and again in following years, posting to penpal sites, contacting lots of people, joining lots of forums, reviewing lots of stories, in the hopes that maybe this time it'd work out...it never did. Just made me feel worse.
Unfortunately that wannabe social butterfly is still somewhere deep down inside me. Deep DEEP down, where I hope it never gets out again.
If I don't reply to you, it's NOTHING PERSONAL. It's my ANXIETY.
(Devetko's boyfriend Stan Brooks & Det. Reichert are horsing around.)
Det. Kristeva: "If it were legal you'd marry me, right?"
Det. Devetko: "Definitely."
(It's legal now!! But Kristeva's already married. ;_; )
"No canoes...no maple sugar...this place is horribly uncivilized."--Manabozho, Escape From Manitou Island