Join Date: Jul 2018
Location: The land down under
Constantly feeling of looking into a mirror
This is going to seem rather strange, but I'll they and describe it to the best of my ability.
Ever since I have had social anxiety, I have always been very hyper aware of how other people perceive me, to the point where I cannot stop thinking about it, to the point where it feels that I am constantly staring at my own reflection.
This makes me feel very anxious in general, but no matter how hard I try to forget about it, it always persists in the back of my mind, like a lurking shadow.
There have been many times where it has been quite bothersome, to the point where I'll constantly check myself in the mirror to reassure myself of how I look, but as soon as I look away, I have the constant urge to do it again and the cycle repeats itself.
This has become so bad in fact, that anytime I make a facial expression, or move any part of my face that includes talking, blinking or anything else, I am always hyper aware of how people might notice me, depending on what I'm doing, or how I'm acting in my surroundings.
Other things that I seem to find incredibly nerve wracking is eating out in public and avoid it as much as I possibly can, so ideally I'd rather order takeouts or get deliveries to my house instead. I can however eat out in public, but I always have to be with someone, whether its a friend or a family member, to avoid feeling like I am in the spotlight, but I still hate it regardless.
Can anyone relate to how I feel, and if so what have you done to manage it?