Re: Are you really scared of people?
I'm not scared of people. I have anxiety attacks, even when I'm alone. The reason I avoid people is because my worst fear is having an uncontrollable anxiety attack in public where people could see me. I'm much more prone to anxiety attacks when I'm out in a social place, because I never know when I'm going to have one, and in the back of my mind I'm always thinking, damn, what if I have an anxiety attack right now in front of all these people? That makes my mind start to race through all the possible outcomes, and that, in turn, makes me start to panic and that panic slowly starts to get bigger and bigger until I either have to leave immediately or risk freaking out and people seeing me.
I like people, but I'm afraid of them seeing me lose my mind. So then I stay inside, or, if I'm forced to go out, I do my best to be as invisable as possible.