Originally Posted by Persephone The Dread
Oh yeah I forgot but I had a dream which involved part of my body rotting years ago too. I think it was symbolic though.
Having them every night must be difficult. It's weird how some people are more prone to them than others. I wonder if it's related to the violence OCD? Like those feelings seep into your subconscious and manifest weirdly.
I don't watch much horror stuff but I think I'm probably the opposite though it depends. But the Saw films I watched didn't bother me that much for example. I think I tend to react to realistic stuff more with anger (if anything,) so it doesn't make me as scared, might make me cringe though. I mentioned this in another thread recently but Amnesia: The Dark Descent was pretty scary when I tried to play it. (Also watching people's reactions while playing that game is funny.) Also often the sound effects really mess with me. Psychological/supernatural stuff is more scary to me, but I find it very interesting at the same time.
My brother has a problem with nightmares, too. He's on medication for GAD. I think it's a vicious circle, in my case. Being trans exposes me to the threat of violence, which interacts with my genetic predisposition for anxiety, which fuels my OCD, which fuels my nightmares... My therapist thinks I have complex PTSD, in addition to my OCD and gender dysphoria, and she knows about my suicidal depression. But GD, OCD, cPTSD, suicidality, insomnia, and colitis aren't enough to qualify me for disability. You need psychosis to qualify here. There are links between my particular issues and psychosis, so maybe all I need is One Bad Day.
Movies like Saw and Hostel are the kind of horror I have problems with. I avoid 'torture porn', if I can. I started Amnesia: TDD, but never got very far through it. Don't remember why I stopped, now. Probably just trying to finish other games. I've played a bunch of the Silent Hill and RE games, and some other random horror. Nothing in years, though. I can't afford to upgrade to play the newer games.