It took me a month and I had two in a row. When people take that long to achieve something like this it's because there's an underlying belief that's stopping them, a resistance or something telling you that you're not good enough so that's something you need to work on first.
Well, I'm aware of that. I've read several books about it and spent several years trying to figure out why it wasn't working for me. I've also done a lot of meditation over the years. I use it to manage my stress. It really makes no difference whether the problem is an underlying belief or something else if you can't find or eliminate the belief.
In my dreams, something or someone is usually trying to kill me, so asking myself if I'm dreaming, or looking at my hands or whatever, never occurs to me in my dreams, even though I do it all the time IRL.
Originally Posted by Persephone The Dread
I think my mum said that sometimes when she'd get really scared in nightmares she could wake herself up from them somehow. I don't have many nightmares (and don't remember my dreams very often now either,) but when I do at a certain point they often turn comedic or the scary part is short and other things happen, or something bad happens and then I become the monster (like one time someone shot me dead and then I came back and started eating them, was pretty graphic but didn't bother me because it was me doing it,) or I alter the dream unconsciously so it becomes less scary when I become really freaked out. But that seems to happen without me trying. I had sleep paralysis one time though and that was pretty bad even though it wasn't visual.
I don't think this is enough but I seem to have some kind of empathy/fascination with horrifying or creepy stuff even when awake. Like even from early childhood. So I'm wondering if that somehow effects things in my subconscious as well.
Every once in a while I'll wake myself up, but 99% of the time the dream wakes me up. Which is different. In the first, you realize while having the dream it is a dream and say "**** this" and wake yourself up; in the second the adrenaline itself wakes you up (wake with a start, heart pounding).
Sometimes my dreams change from nightmares into less upsetting dreams on their own. It's not unusual for me to be woken up by a nightmare 2 or 3 times a night. This is one of the reasons I've had insomnia for the last 30 years and why I'm perpetually exhausted. I don't honestly remember the last time I had 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep. It's been years and years.
The only good thing is that I've seen lots of cool monsters and been in lots of interesting situations. Giants, robots, aliens, bears/lions/wolves/giant owls, mythological creatures, ghosts, demons, possessed toys, Satan (several times), zombies, serial killers, Nazis, cannibals. Lots of dreams about having some kind of disease that makes my body rot/fall apart. Tornadoes, floods, electrical storms, volcanoes, earthquakes, plagues, wars. And then, when I'm awake, I have my OCD about violence, so it's like my nightmares spill over into RL.
I've always liked horror movies/games/books. They don't really scare me, because my dreams are worse, but I find them interesting and oddly 'familiar'. The one thing that does bother me is any kind of torture scenario, where someone's tied up and being hurt by another person. I don't like intentional, cruel, malicious violence of any kind. But I can handle fight scenes in movies just fine. Accidents bother me, though, too, if they're graphic. I think the more possible something is, the more it bothers me. So supernatural stuff doesn't bother me at all when I'm watching it but even something like a YT video of someone falling and hurting themselves can. I'm very fond of creepy-cute stuff.