Oh well in my situation I noticed I can really have friends when I feel good and don't give a **** about myself, I sort of forget myself and put my focus on other people. Well I noticed in my situation this friendship vibe without the wall works when I take antidepressants, which isn't really that drastic of a perspective but actually for me, it's a huge one. I guess you have to come to a point where you feel like this, like you want something and you will do whatever no matter who rejects you, you keep going. Invincible is one word for it.
And you say the people you've met and got to know haven't checked up on you, well that's bad, what you have to do is be in charge and take the initiative and check out on them. You have to do it when you feel good, or when you feel bad, but it's easier when you feel good. You have to check up on them, and it doesn't have to be 24/7 texting or hanging out, that's crazy, and would drive anyone away. I keep doing that with boyfriends and it's just madness. You just gotta show interest and join in hanging out outings here and there and make small talk and ask if you can hang out with each other. Stuff like that bro, it's pretty similar to how you hang out and behave with your family or your siblings or you cousin for instance. It's very hard when you feel like **** and like you don't deserve to do something, but once you do like moi, then you're pretty much normal.