So, you people are going to hear more than my psychiatrist!
That's probably NOT a good thing at all, but my anxiety is just so overpowering, i can't even help myself in my psychiatrist's office when the help is offered to me--where I should (and where I pay for to) share my deepest feelings and get the help I need to function as a part of society. But I'm just.. not a part of society. Anymore, anyway.
I used to be very social. I had a ton of friends. I used to LOVE to talk to people, not dread being in contact with them.
Well. I have bulimia. It's embarassing to say so.
I wish I didn't but I do.
Along with bulimia are other comorbid disorders such as body dysmorphic syndrome, major depression, and of course social anxiety.
My anxiety is, like everyone else here, is severely crippling-socially, mentally, and even physically.
Social? What's that again?
I just want to be a little more confident in my own skin.
I just want to be one of a billion of other human beings; not a monster among them all.
I just want to stop comparing myself to others.
I just want to be able to make friends again.
I just want to be able to ****ing live.
Excuse my language (if you care), but I JUST WANT TO LIVE.
I want to be free from any imagined social standing and any thought of "so-and-so probably thinks I'm a retard or ugly or whatever".
SO HELLO, I'M ALLIE AND I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER. THANK YOU.