Sailor Mercury
Join Date: Sep 2020
Location: California
Language: English
Gender: Female
Age: 23
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Its been a few years..
Hi, you all.
I have joined when I was 15-16, and 19-20. I left the first time because I started therapy and my SA was getting slightly more tolerable. I left the second time because I talked too much in the chatroom while having a manic episode (I have Bipolar, OCD, GAD) and everyone outcasted me and called me nasty things so it made me really feel even more isolated and hated so I left.
I'm back because I haven't been this depressed in YEARS. Crying everyday, crying myself to sleep, while driving, while talking, while typing (now), while with friends, while on a date. I feel absolutely hopeless. Theres a disconnect in my brain and its killing me because I cant figure it out. Therapy hasn't been helping.. But I live at home and need to pretend like I'm doing better because I can't put my mom through anymore than I have.
I know this is a SA support site, and for the most part I do not have SA, just general anxiety. But I'm hoping I can make some new friends here and we can just talk it out and support each other. I just got dumped, and the job I got to make money to move in with him has just let me go, so I'm very free to chat. I look forward to talking to anyone here who would like to talk to me
ps. I'm so sorry if I ever act weird again. I do have frequent manic mood swings where I sound very loopy but I mean no harm. I'm also not on any meds besides Lyrica for my pinched nerve pain.
I have joined when I was 15-16, and 19-20. I left the first time because I started therapy and my SA was getting slightly more tolerable. I left the second time because I talked too much in the chatroom while having a manic episode (I have Bipolar, OCD, GAD) and everyone outcasted me and called me nasty things so it made me really feel even more isolated and hated so I left.
I'm back because I haven't been this depressed in YEARS. Crying everyday, crying myself to sleep, while driving, while talking, while typing (now), while with friends, while on a date. I feel absolutely hopeless. Theres a disconnect in my brain and its killing me because I cant figure it out. Therapy hasn't been helping.. But I live at home and need to pretend like I'm doing better because I can't put my mom through anymore than I have.
I know this is a SA support site, and for the most part I do not have SA, just general anxiety. But I'm hoping I can make some new friends here and we can just talk it out and support each other. I just got dumped, and the job I got to make money to move in with him has just let me go, so I'm very free to chat. I look forward to talking to anyone here who would like to talk to me
ps. I'm so sorry if I ever act weird again. I do have frequent manic mood swings where I sound very loopy but I mean no harm. I'm also not on any meds besides Lyrica for my pinched nerve pain.
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Hey MercuryGal, welcome back. 
Sailor Mercury
Join Date: Sep 2020
Location: California
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thank you so much, i appreciate that a lot
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Sailor Mercury
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Sailor Mercury cool, cool haven't seen SM in years. Welcome back, I also just got back a month ago or so so yeah nice to have a fellow former SAS member here again. Sorry to hear about the chat thing. Hope it works out this time for you.
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Hey, there! Welcome back and I hope that this awesome community here on the forums will help you!
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see, i'm real...if you want me to be.
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