Hi, you all.
I have joined when I was 15-16, and 19-20. I left the first time because I started therapy and my SA was getting slightly more tolerable. I left the second time because I talked too much in the chatroom while having a manic episode (I have Bipolar, OCD, GAD) and everyone outcasted me and called me nasty things so it made me really feel even more isolated and hated so I left.
I'm back because I haven't been this depressed in YEARS. Crying everyday, crying myself to sleep, while driving, while talking, while typing (now), while with friends, while on a date. I feel absolutely hopeless. Theres a disconnect in my brain and its killing me because I cant figure it out. Therapy hasn't been helping.. But I live at home and need to pretend like I'm doing better because I can't put my mom through anymore than I have.
I know this is a SA support site, and for the most part I do not have SA, just general anxiety. But I'm hoping I can make some new friends here and we can just talk it out and support each other. I just got dumped, and the job I got to make money to move in with him has just let me go, so I'm very free to chat. I look forward to talking to anyone here who would like to talk to me
ps. I'm so sorry if I ever act weird again. I do have frequent manic mood swings where I sound very loopy but I mean no harm. I'm also not on any meds besides Lyrica for my pinched nerve pain.