Hi SAS. Nice to be here.
Hi SAS, it's nice to be here, I just created an account today.👋👋
I had an account here I think maybe 3,4 or 5 years ago(?) but I don't recall much about it. I do remember I was struggling just to interact here without nearly flipping out on people, but I've grown a bit since then.
Anyway, I suffer from terrible social anxiety, I've had it all my life. A psychiatrist diagnosed it as SA as well, so it's not just me saying it. To be honest with you, over the years I've done a lot reading/research about this condition and, although I haven't been officially diagnosed, I'm certain my mindset is that of the Avoidant Personality Disorder - a deep-seated, severe, and quite unshakable form of social anxiety. It's been a curse on my life and lead me to despair and to the brink of suicide.
It's a daily struggle, or should I say a daily self-management, and to cut a long story short, in order to keep my sanity, I'm now practically a recluse. That's why the internet, for me, is a great tool - a tool to feel connected to the world and also it just helps in keeping my mind occupied as well, as I'm not required to hold a job. Very thankful for my doctors and for my country's support.
I like to go for walks, to enjoy nature, but even that proves an effin challenge, even on meds, and today was no exception. That's why I joined today.
Good to be among kindred spirits and to know I'm not alone in these very trying lives we've been given.