Well I'm at a point where im aggressively honest and open about as much as anyone is willing to listen to...
Just had 10 sessions of cbt, which worked more like an analytical type of therapy and was in a place at the time where i didnt try to undermine and invalidate any opinions which conflicted with my own, so it went very well. My life is still poop by most people's standards, but i feel able to deal with it slowly.
As for daily basis, i live alone, go to work, act like the weird guy in the corner and communicate via grunts and shakes of my head, run away or pretend to not hear people when they ask a question etc. Then come home, speak to people on omegle, etc. if i have thoughts to share or feel lonely, go to sleep rinse repeat.
I was a hikkikomori for 5 years after high school so its a pattern im ok with. This is bad in terms of making progress though because without suffering theres no need to change.
I also have kids too, but this is a long enough entry i guess so ill save that for the event that its of relevance to anyone here
Nice to meet you guys, thanks for the welcomes!
p.s. i dont think im a nice guy, but i want to be!