No, I'm just living here at the moment. And yeah, people are far too busy with their own lives or their own insecurities to really worry about us. But this doesn't necessarily stop the anxiety - it's incredible just how hyper-vigilant I still am most of the time. Noticing who is in the hall or whatever. It's not as bad as before though - and usually I'm not as bad once I actually get out the door and go outside.
You look good for your age. Those beach runs, fresh fish, Indonesian women chasing after you etc do you good, you lucky *******.
I don't know why I'm much less hyper vigilant, it's just happened.
I was in a town in Wales last year with 15-20 pissed up late teens/early 20's, who I ended up getting on a bus with. Sat with them for a good 15 minutes outside by the pub and bus stop while one decided to smash a bottle into the bloody buses path, and they shouted at random people going about their saturday night.
Beer flying everywhere when they got on the bus and they were quite rowdy, and a couple of people couldn't wait to get off, one young lad looked terrified, but I felt hardly any anxiety.
I'd just hiked over 20 miles up and down a mountain though so was wrecked, so probably too tired to fire off all the adrenaline lol, but yeah, I just don't feel as anxious anywhere near as much.
I'm quite stocky and can put on a a bit of a mean appearance I think, and act really chilled and like nothing bothers me, so that helps.
That starts to fade quite quickly though if I have to start talking too much lol
Are you sure that you don't own that hotel btw? Free accommodation for me maybe if I pay for my own flight and grub?