I've always been very shy. It got worse when I started junior high. Three years later, when high school started, I felt like I couldn't handle it anymore, so I stopped going to public school and was homeschooled for the rest of high school. I'm going to college now but have been taking mostly online courses.
Lately my social anxiety isn't as bad as it was a few years ago. I've gotten better about a lot of things ever since I met my fiance. I originally met him online, through a site called OkCupid. We got to know each other online, progressed to chatting on the phone, and we visited each other in real life a few times even though he lived 2,000 miles away from me. Eventually, in late March this year, he moved to my state to be with me, and we're still living together. He has been my motivation for a lot of things, like getting an apartment and a job.
It wasn't until recently that I realized how bad my social anxiety still is. Until recently, I had jobs that involved individual work, like data entry. I wasn't expected to interact with my coworkers. But now I have two jobs that involve a lot of interaction between employees. Even though my coworkers are really friendly with me, and even though I want to open up to them, I feel unable to. I feel the same way about my fiance's family members; I want to open up to them but don't know how. With these realizations, I decided I need to start actively fighting my social anxiety. I've recently gone back to therapy and started reading a self-help book.
I have a hard time expressing myself through speech. Writing comes to me much more easily.
Anyway, I look forward to meeting other people with social anxiety and hoping that we can help each other out.