honestly idk, i like smoking weed but lately thats been giving me bad anxiety.. i love women but am shy and its hard for me to meet new girls.. i love music but dont see a future in that.. i like sports, no future in that either.. drinking and going out used to be something i loved now i just kind of do it and dont get much joy out of it.. i really just want to travel the world and live an awesome life, but i need money for this.. that is why im so confused i hate school so much but feel like i wont be succesfull unless i get a degree..i just dont know what career path to follow
You don't know any of this. You have assimilated information that other people have given you and you have developed bad thinking habits.
I thought I was terrible at music too but now I'm a professional studio producer. You don't know if youll be good or bad at sport, all you know is your identification with that subject. In your case your identification is not assisting your action.
Every thought is there to serve for you to do action. Action is 80% thought is 20%. If your thought is 80% you are not doing anything. You are over thinking and its harmful.
I think what you should do is involve yourself as much as you can, the world can tell you that there is no future in it, but you have to decide what you really like and want then do that.
So if you want to travel maybe don't go too far but still go somewhere and travel. It mite be the next state with a few friends or a city or town surrounding that you havn't been to. If you choose to live the life of an adventurer then do that.
Ask yourself, how much action are you taking? And why should all your en-devours be successful? Who do you have to prove yourself to and what are you trying to achieve in society.
Wealth does not make one happy, if I gave you a job tomorrow doing what I do, even if you loved music (which I think you do) you won't be happy. Soon it will become tedious awful and boring. All work is the same it just takes different forms. Work in general is logical, you are an emotional creature. You can't find happiness by finding a correct job or even worrying about future prospects which don't exist.
YOU DONT KNOW, you simply don't. I see allot of conflict with TIME in you. You have to eliminate time in order to reach peace within yourself then find your right direction.
The first step is to eliminate all past, and all future, be very aware and present in the moment. You could do meditation by eliminating all thinking, changing your diet to get more positive green nutrients (fast processing), and adequate sleep every night starting from 9:30pm (latest).
Quieten your mind, take allot more action and after about 8 months of DOING come back and decide on your choices.
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