|Persephone The Dread
||06-12-2019 11:42 AM
I think so yeah but my theory has to do with the fact that initially as a young child I was diagnosed with selective mutism, and according to more recent research, the disorder is related to sensory processing abnormalities (like in autism,) especially auditory processing disorder.
Over the past decade SM has been typically conceptualized as an anxiety disorder (Beidel and Turner, 2005, Viana et al., 2009). Some researchers and clinicians suggested that SM is in fact an extreme type of social anxiety disorder (Black and Uhde, 1992, Black and Uhde, 1995). Alternatively it is conceivable that vocalizing, in and of its own, may constitute the feared context as in specific phobias. Both lines of clinical thought lead to cognitive behavior therapy (CBT) and selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) gaining center stage as first-line treatments for SM, with both approaches showing limited success (Kaakeh and Stumpf, 2008, Keeton and Budinger, 2012). While there are some indications for the involvement of Serotonin in auditory processing (Gopal et al., 2000, Thompson et al., 1998 ), the primary neurotransmitter supporting inhibitory efferent activity at the olivocochlear bundle and in the neuromuscular junction responsible for activation of the MEAR is acetylcholine (Godfrey et al., 1990, Simmons, 2002). Thus, current pharmacological and psychological treatments may not be able to target the underling auditory efferent deficits exhibited by a considerable portion of children with SM. The clinical efficacy of current treatments will probably remain limited to the anxiety symptoms commonly found in children with SM, leaving the speech-related primary symptom of the disorder untreated.
(it's pretty bad too, it's only when I started paying attention that I realised how often this ****s me up. Like even when alone I have to rewind TV shows I'm watching without subtitles a lot to understand what is being said lol, of course I do have other attention issues too though. Talking on the phone is bad particularly when the quality isn't good. Sometimes I pretend to have heard.)
So assuming from a young age I was brought up in a world where people weren't speaking much then it might have helped a tiny amount. However I think there are some other things that contributed too, but perhaps it would have helped a bit especially at younger ages when the other things hadn't taken a toll/manifested yet, I don't know. I do seem to be kind of generally slow/out of it though, so maybe it wouldn't.