When You Feel at Your Best Do You have the Urge to Self Destruct? - Social Anxiety Forum
 
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post #1 of 8 (permalink) Old 10-23-2020, 08:23 PM Thread Starter
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When You Feel at Your Best Do You have the Urge to Self Destruct?


I find that when I feel great--when I've had a good day and my mood is relatively stable and I'm......ok, I have an overwhelming urge to sabotage myself by drinking or drugging or....finding anything that will tear the good feeling apart. It makes no sense.

...you gotta keep the goal in mind, develop tunnel vision to a certain extent. it's hard, and it's not for everyone.

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I don't have that. If I've had a "good" day, I'll start thinking things like: "This is just the calm before the storm, something terrible is going to happen," and I'll start getting increasingly anxious, because I know that if something good does happen, it usually means something awful is going to come along to wipe it out. And since something bad always does happen, because more bad things happen to me than good things, no self-sabotage is required, lol.

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Do you feel you don't deserve a good day? Or that you're somehow betraying your normal miserable self by being happy?

I guess I'm pretty good at enjoying good days for what they are, unless they involve potential future commitments to worry about.

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Yeah if we're not destroying each other we're generally low key destroying ourselves anyway, maybe that's why people stay in abusive or bad relationships, damned if you do damned if you don't : /






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I'm the opposite - when my anxiety is so bad its literally tearing a hole in my ****ing chest and I can't deal I'm just like **** it what's the point of anything and I just want to self destruct. I usually don't have booze around and don't have access to drugs so it manifests itself in other ways, i.e. isolating myself, anger, not being a good friend / coworker / son etc. It just overpowers me.

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I'm at my best right now, and unfortunately this is where I get complacent and eat/slack too much. Enjoy the lull before the next calamity hits.
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