What problems do I have?
So, i've been having multiple *social* problems for a long time now. I'm not sure if they're common problems or not, but I would like to fix them. I try my best to fix them, but when the moment comes, I completely forget about trying to fix it. I was wondering if someone could tell me if they are actually problems or if they're normal, many thanks.
1) So, this is a problem that I've been trying to overcome, but i still won't let myself do it. I'm afraid to ask. I'm still in high school, and say if I forget to bring something, like a pen, I won't ask anyone. I never ask for things, ever. If I don't understand something, I won't ask my teacher. If i'm at the shops and something goes wrong, say I don't get the correct change, I won't ask. I know it's stupid and bad, but I can't help it.
2) I don't engage in conversations. I do want to engage is conversations, but something about me just won't let me, like I feel scared sort of it, if that makes sense. When a teacher asks a questions and I know it, I won't put up my hand no matter how sure I am. When i'm in a party and there are people all around, even if they're my friends, I won't join them unless they ask me to. I'm not sure why, but something just worries me when I do try to join in. I'm not sure if it's me being worried, but I just can't do that.
3) Talking. I can talk normally to close friends, but when it comes to people i'm not close with I am really awkward. When someone talks to me, my heart would start pumping like crazy and my face would become really hot. I don't stare anyone in the eyes (aside from close friends), even though I want to. I find it awkward or weird, I try to look people in the eyes, but it only happens for 1-3 seconds, then I try to stare at something else. I know it's weird, but I cant help it. This is even worse when I talk to people of the opposite sex (females) and if I find them attractive, it's the worst.
The reason why I'm asking this is because I feel like it's affecting my everyday life, and if i don't fix it. It will stay with me.