This guy I know took his own life. He was a fellow student in my classes. I wasn't close with him, but I did get to know him more and more over the past few years and really liked him. Whenever we had to do group work we were always in the same group together. He was always really kind to me, to everyone. And he had the best dead pan humour.
Last year, the week before Christmas, he came into class one morning and placed a small Christmas gift on the edge of my desk. It was a small tin of mints. It had an image of two cartoon characters dancing, and over top the text, "Es ist so schŲn, dass es Dich gibt." (It is so nice that you exist). At first I thought it was a mistake, since we never hung out outside of class. Then I noticed he had placed little gifts (magnets with text) on the desk of a couple of other classmates, his friends. We enthusiastically thanked him and his face turned bright red and he very shyly played it off like it was no big deal. It was a really sweet and kind gesture.
Some months later, on his birthday, he invited everyone from class to come celebrate with him in his dorm room. I wished him a happy birthday but I didn't feel like going because a lot of them are younger than me, I didn't know anyone very well and I just felt uncomfortable. So I stayed in and made dinner/watched a movie in my room. At around 7:00 there was a knock on my door and it was him. A lot of people were upstairs, he said, and he invited me to come as well. No pressure or anything but I should definitely think about it and I wouldn't have to stay long. I said okay I would think about it (with no intention of going). Ten minutes later he was back to try to convince me again lol. So I agreed, went to the party, and ended up having a really good time - and got to know everybody a tiny bit better in the process.
None of us knew that he was suffering on that level. It makes me so sad to know that he was. Even more to know that this was the only solution he saw. He had a somewhat serious medical condition and I think that also played a role as well.
I'm glad that we all got know him and I'm thankful for the little role he played in my life. I'm thankful that he existed.