Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: Utah, USA
Language: English, a little Japanese, Java, C#, C++
It's funny, I really wanted children when I was younger. I thought that I was "supposed to" want them, though. Like I couldn't even imagine myself NOT wanting kids because I thought that would be "bad." The culture I grew up in put HUGE importance on getting married and having children -- even for people who really can't afford them, which is a damn shame. And people told me that I was good with kids, though I don't really know about that.
Now that I'm older I really don't want kids at all. I mean for one thing I've gotten a better grasp of just how much time, effort and money they take, from looking at all of my cousins and many old friends as they had these HUGE families. Then I consider all the starving children in this world and wonder why in holy hell I'd ever want to add one more. Plus the fact that this world is so incredibly ****ed up and I cannot imagine forcing a whole new life to go through it. I've obviously got a lot of problems, including mental illnesses -- and those are genetic. How could I risk passing them on? And then there's the terrible possibility that I could have a child with a severe disability, like one of my cousin's kids who has down syndrome. I know for a fact that I couldn't deal with that.
Maybe it's all selfishness and fear -- whatever. In any case I'm perfectly content to have only MYSELF to look out for in this life, because I do a poor enough job of that! Ain't no way I could care for an entire family. I truly believe that some people would be far better off NEVER having children, and I happen to be one of them.
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