This is amazing and sad... I feel the same way and people act around me as described above. No friends or girlfriends. I'm 24 and went to see a hooker last year as i was a virgin and probably still am. Turned out i had problems performing and did not manage to cum. I wasn't on medication. The only thing that excited me was the blowjob, which gave me the erection in the first place, but couldn't keep it inside of her.
They say 'go to hookers and build confidence' but that incident made my things worse. Now besides that i'm still afraid to speak with girls, the thought of being a lazy semi-impotent sex partner in a potential relationship is killing me.
People say stuff about me on the street and complain about my different walking stile. Women hate me and they make fun of me if they don't know me. One **** at school kept calling me robocop in the past. I wasn't sure why, until i realized it's probably the anxiety stiffness.
I keep reading anxiety reviews on the internet coming from people with girfriends. They always seem to start with ... 'my girlfriend understands me and supports me all the way' etc. How the hell did they manage to get girlfriends in the first place, i don't know. Society is brainwashed in thinking men who are jerks may be the best partners out there. I hate my life and i will probably never get a girl to sleep with me without involving begging, money or other interests
Sometimes i'm just happy when i'm home alone in front of my computer watching movies and browsing the web.
I would die like this a happy virgin if society and family wouldn't discriminate it. My father once asked me if i'm gay. wtf