First off... this is my first post, woot woot. I believe congrats are in order.
Now onto the purpose of aforementioned:
I am a PTSD/Panic Disorder/Insomniac/Depressed-but in remission/FRUSTRATED person who has been utilized as a lab rat (lol) for several different cocktails of meds with very mild success rate.
My success has been with Zoloft. It is the only medication I've been on consistently for over a year that does produce some awesome results (thus the remission of depression). BUT, anxiety, insomnia, and agoraphobia are a roller coster ride that continuously breaks down.
For insomnia, I've been rx'ed seroquel (got addicted), trazadone (only made me crabby), ambien (stopped working), and currently lunesta. the lunesta worked... for a few days and then like all its predecesors lost its affect. Unfortunately, even though I do switch medications, when the new one no longer works, I still have the "leftovers" from old ones. Then my bright idea of cocktailing comes to mind. Normally it's fine and like a new med, it works for a little while.
Last night I made my first 1 dose of Lunesta and 1 dose of Ambien mixture thinking that it would be the same as Ambien and Seroquel.
I was so horribly wrong. There most certainly was an interaction... however, I don't remember it. It was not an overdose, this I know. It was most likely the short term memory loss side effect I read about but never experienced.
When I woke this morning... this is what I found on my phone:
1. "im took meds. tweeken right now... so i might be a little awkward."
2. "lol! not going lie, i like the nighttime trips. lol..."
3. "yeah, if you were here... id give you my stuff for a small experience. its badass. i need double of everything and my senses are all crazed out..."
4."there's fliers and they're handling out fliers to meet people. it could work... this show is faster than my brain, so i am not great at the making of sense."
And at the end of this unusual text message conversation, I agreed to get a tattoo of Hedwig's face.
My purpose of this post is to find out everyone's opinion...
Am I subconsciously addicted to highs? I always thought I could spot the additions and thats when I'd discontinue a medication.
Is it possible for medications of the right mixture to literally manipulate the brain/mind like my messages showed? (I promise...I do not talk like that on a normal day... nor have I EVER attempted to give anyone my medication)
Why would I have such an ..um... interesting conversation... and not retain it?
Could I have had a temporary Broca issue? Seems like it.
Needless to say, called my doc and I have a session on Monday to yet again, find a different solution to my uniqueness. I will let y'all know how it goes.
Looking forward to everyone's responses.