what i seem to be dealing with is strange because ive always been really good at everything i try, i set goals for myself, i know where i want to be, what i want to do, but something holds me back from being the best i can be. ive achieved my dream job, i was captain of my field hockey team in high school, just cant hold on to the dreams for too long till the depression comes back again........i quit jobs within the first week. i feel like ive had chronic severe depression my whole life basically. now the anxiety gets worse because i can question things for myself as an adult, i realllllllly do not belive in modern medicine to treat anxiety or depression or whatever social anxiety. i belive it is something that we have basically created in our own minds, with a little bit of environment influence, or possibly the way we are raised..............my point is, i fully support a natural approach to mental illness, but adderal could possibly help save my life. i have no addiction problems, i dont even take anything now, just feeling the feels. not sure what im suppose to do anymore. i feel stuck most the time anyways.