Hi, I started paroxetine(brand name, cebrilin, here in brazil) in 2008 and I continue to take 40mg daily.
Differently from most people I've read in the internet, paroxetine worked great for me.
Since I was born, I was this shy person, didn't have much friends, couldn't talk well to girls, afraid of speaking in public...well, you know.
When I was 17 I went to a psychiatrist to see if she could help me, I was always very interested in chemistry(working on a degree now) and fascinated by drugs in general, so I didn't really care about opinions on the internet.
Anyway, I was diagnosed with social anxiety and mild depression and started taking 20mg of paroxetine.
First week, it made me electric, like I never was before! I wanted to go around jumping, dancing, singing....Damn, I never thought life was sooo good.
After that the euphoria subsided a little, but I still felt great.
I became for the first time in my life comfortable around other people, I could talk to women, got a girlfriend, made friends, spoke in public...
I was happy.
I increased the dose to get even better effects and it worked.
Yes, I got a side effect, delayed orgasm, but I don't think it's that bad, I can last 1 hour easily penetrating, and that's awesome.
Yes, it made me a bit apathic, if I get a bad grade at college for example, I don't really care, but I don't think it's bad, I learned to control that, I know rationale that I need to study, shower, clean my teeth, even though I don't care too much if I do something wrong.
I've missed doses lots of time and the effects get weaker when I do, but I didn't feel like I was dying or something.
I don't really want to ever come out of it, so I don't think withdrawl will ever be a problem.
What I don't really understand is why some people drop it after 1 week, or after years if it is working. Yes, you do get different, you're not your old self anymore, but you know what, that's what I want. I don't like my old introverted self.
I don't feel like ever crying anymore, and I don't know how someone would think this is bad, crying is terrible, I'm always smiling and happy. Yes, you may think I'm not very human anymore, but I don't really care, it's awesome. I don't care about bad things anymore, if a friend dies for example I will be like: "yeah, ok it was bad, let's think about something else"
I learned how to move on in life, I don't suffer anymore because of anything.
I finally understood bad things happen and suffering is not a solution, you just gotta forget about it, life is short, enjoy it.
Also, if I ever get out of it, I know I will never be the same anymore, I was able to build so much confidence these 2 and a half years, I'm a complete new person.
To the guy that got beat up by an UFC boxer...first of all, there's no such a thing as an UFC boxer, UFC is a mma organization where fighters practice mma, which includes elements from boxing, brazilian jiu jitsu, wrestling and others martial arts(hence the name, mixed martial arts)
UFC is not a martial art per se, it's an organization like the NFL or the NBA
Also, I really doubt this guy was from the UFC as most UFC guys are professional fighters and don't work elsewhere(there are exceptions but whatever)
Also, if someone is badmouthing you you got stand up for yourself, that's what I do, if the person tries to phisically hurt me, I will fill a lawsuit against him, or kick his ***(If i'm able to).
I also feel brave like you did, but that's a good thing, being a coward and letting people badmouth you is not the way, although engaging in fights is not the best way to resolve that.
You made a dumb move, and that's not because of the paxil.