of the escitalopram (lexapro) and a quick update.
Last night was terrible. Felt really irritable. I was tired but also really restless at the same time, really hard to describe. I was worried I was developing akathisia as this is one of the side effects of the meds
. Luckily this did subside but I had really awful headaches and spent most of last night in my room just sitting/lying on my bed. I've had a few weird things happen, I wouldn't call them hallucinations (I'm sure some people would but I don't want to be that dramatic) i've just tried to ignore them for now (e.g. strange images/thoughts before falling asleep etc).
Still having trouble sleeping although think I got to sleep about 2.30am last night so a slight improvement.
Feel today Day 4 like there is no difference and that I haven't even been taking the meds... the excessive yawning that I had from day 1-3 has stopped altogether.
I do feel a little less anxious (over all of the 4 days) but more depressed unfortunately. However it does say on instructions for the medicine that the anxiety/depression may increase when you are initially starting on the medication.
Still getting really anxious/worked up when my heart race increases e.g. from walking up a set of stairs too quickly, sitting in traffic, people visiting the house or something like this. This tends to feed into my fears about my anxiety starting etc
Overall I do believe in this medicine as I did feel something a little better even on day 1 and so believe that it will be able to help me. I'm willing to give it at last a months trial anyway.
It feels a LOT better than citalopram/celexa that's for sure even if the two are closely related (citalopram didn't suit me at all and I felt 10x worse).