I'm so bad at talking to people that on this site alone, in the couple months I've been hanging around, I still don't have anyone who talks to me regularly; I've offended people deeply without trying, I've struggled to get someone to even reply, and I've even been blocked by someone after 10 minutes of conversation without even knowing what I said - I had to explain the conversation to someone else to try and figure out what I did wrong, and I still don't get it.
It's not just you. I'm next level sh** socially. Just talking to someone online at all seems to actually hurt them. It's pretty bad. I'm like that chicken from Xmen except I kill with social awkwardness rather than touching.
Hang out and see what happens. I'm getting worse at it by the day, but I can assure you that after running away from things like this my whole life, it didn't get better. It got worse. I've already freaked and left this site for a while. Didn't help. Actually made it a little worse I think. Probably should have stayed gone. Anyway. It was all bad.
No longer posting or reading the public forum.
Please send a PM (or email), I'll still be checking my messages as long as I have any.