Goal is to find help
There is not a doubt in my mind that I need to focus on seeking out help for myself. SA and Depression is something I don't have to stuggle with on my own. If there is still hope in my life, then there's somebody out there willing to invest time and attention in me. My goal is to be more honest and frank about this very serious need for help. A mentor, a counsellor, a friend, or even my sister may have to be sufficient. Also I must be persistent and remind this person that I need help on a regular basis, rather than than only once in a while when I ask them for help. If this person is not helping me in their manner or speech, I need to be brave and honest about it, without being critical or harsh.
Yuck, I'm not good at this goal setting stuff. Maybe I should just start by cleaning up my room some more. Feedback is always welcomed, of course.