Thank you for your replies!
@Aleforge: It's really disheartening isn't it? When your own family feel like strangers to you. And you're right, this problem doesn't fade with age. I've been dealing with this my whole life and still no change at all. I wish I had someone to speak for me who knew all my thoughts and feelings so I didn't have to verbally put myself on the spot.
@Fairydust: No no, your kind words and the fact that you replied are helpful enough. It's good to know I'm not the only one struggling with this affliction. I also have colleagues of whom I cannot talk with even though I've been with them awhile. Sometimes I try to sit very still so they forget I'm present. lol. I hope we can both get through this.