re: feeling guilty
i think you posting on here already shows how much you appreciate what they are doing for you but for some reason you think you need to do even more which is probably not the case
Like maybe you're not telling them or you feel you're not showing them how much they mean to you for what they are doing for you? So maybe you can tell them, email or otherwise tell em and really spill out how much you appreciate and care for how they are helping you
Talked to my school counselor today and he brought up how we have usually blow things up or how we distort reality...
do you think its rational to think the way you are? probably not because you're posting on here about it
so its probably irrational to think they hate you, i actually felt this way lots about people but once you start to believe in yourself you almost stop worrying about how people perceive you