Thanks to everyone for the helpful info. Since there is no magic wand to make me emotionally open, I'll reluctantly bite the bullet and pay the money for Dr. Richards' program.
Re: emotional openness, years ago I took some expensive classes from PSI ("pop psychology") that temporarily opened me up to be able to express myself around people. The benefits faded over a matter of days, but it was a wonderful feeling while it lasted.
I've struggled with SA since 7th grade. Tried Paxil...it helped some...but I'm a minimalist and didn't like some of the side effects.
Okay. Time to proceed. The first step is often the hardest.