You're not alone. I get a lot of anxiety around my family. There probably isn't anyone who gives me more anxiety than my dad. I generally have to see them once a month, sometimes twice, and I get no sleep the night before. When I'm with them I feel like I'm going to throw up my anxiety is so bad. I'd avoid my family if I could, but that's not really an option. I've never gotten out of a family function. Nothing short of death would do it, lol.
I always envied people that felt comfortable around their family. For me, family is just another problem I have to deal with, like depression or anxiety. Not the fault of anyone in my family, though. It's just me.
Beauty isn't everything. It's the only thing.