How do you feel among family?

Both direct family (father/mother/sister/brother) and distant family like cousins ,uncles and aunts ?

For some reason my SA is at it's highest during such encounters. Only during family gatherings do I tremble and choke. I'm doing "fine" with strangers as long as don't start asking personal questions.

I really don't feel at easy with family while they should be the people you know the best and judge the least . I would tell a total stranger about my feelings and how anxious I am about this or that but I cannot do this with family.

In fact I just don't talk at all during family parties, except to the person who sits next to me. It got gradually worse and worse when the family got bigger with cousins and nieces marrying.