You type very well for someone inebriated.
It's common to feel like trash when you see yourself on a webcam camera. Firstly, that quality doesn't do anyone favors! But just go easy and be kind to yourself. You really don't look as bad as you think. For a living I do transcription. I literally have to listen and watch people talk all day. Never in my work have i thought "that person sounds/looks like *negative adjective word here*. Most of this stuff is in your head. In reality, everyone is concerned with themselves and not how you look like.