yes and no. I've been dating the wrong people for a while now it seems. always bpd. idk why I'm attracted to them. but I dont think codependent because I realise and then end it. I just did 2 dates with the last one and aborted, so I guess I've had enough of that. but no one else pays me any attention :/. I was only with the main one for 3 months but we did move in together. and it did feel really empty afterwards. I dont make my own excitement or chaos so without her it was super boring and just... bleh. it takes time to adjust. have to stick with your decision. these people are quite dangerous to your freedom/happiness/etc. unhappiness is something you have to go through and is hopefully temporary.
"I take what is mine. I pay the iron price."