I have only one that I can call a friend but rarely share anything with him. I have a job but not stable and most people at my place underestimate it. I have a family but I don't want to relate to them. I isolate myself so I'm getting to lose my language ability. People looked at me like I'm a loser and weirdo. I'm really upset about it and it makes me feel worse about myself. I don't know how can survive in this society while I'm getting older and stupider. I'm hopeless. The only thing comforts me right now is to know your story and some anothers that can relate to me. I know that I'm not lonely in this trap. I hope you feel the same too. It maybe a little tiny thing sometimes we can depend on.