Hi 🙂 Sounds like a tough situation with no easy way out.
You mention that you're on disability. Have you ever sought, or received, any treatment for your SA, either talking therapy or medication?
I don't know what it's like where you live, but here a person in your situation would be able to access some kind of subsidized treatment, with a view to helping you to engage more with life and possibly re-enter the workforce.
I hope this doesn't come over as patronising. Maybe you're at the point where you feel that nothing will help, I don't know. Or maybe you've tried medications with no success.
But for me, finding the right med has been instrumental in helping me to get "out there" and find a job without feeling crippled by SA to the point where I was avoiding everything.