It's mixture of social anxiety combined with a plethora confidence issues and shame for me. Lots of stuff that I've repressed from family and friends keeps surfacing lately. For one thing, a lot of the depression, shame, and general psychological pain I've put myself through over the years has started manifesting more into anger. Which isn't at all helpful. People around me aren't understanding these changes happening in me. I used to maintain a calm and composed appearance. Now I'm just kind of losing my composure everytime I think about the state of my life and I've got nowhere to put those feelings. I'm at major crossroads in my life right now too, which is intensifying a lot of my frustration. Just need some stability and space, or someone who can support me emotionally, neither of which feel feasible in my life right now.