, You may not have advice but I appreciate the response and I feel a little less alone with your reassurance about not being the only one.
I can understand your feeling not worth help as well from reasons other than just anxiety. I certainly have felt that way but lately I've been placing a lot of importance in doing things that will make me feel better where I can. Dieting, Exercising, Keeping my space nice, clean and tidy, grooming properly. Self-Care
These are all little things that maybe we don't put as much importance in as we should and it has made me feel better a lot.