I don't know what to do with my life
21 years, I feel like my life's over.
I have no motivation, no dreams or goals to accomplish just sadness. Dropout of college because my social anxiety and depression. Parents disappointed because they spent their money in me. No job or skill. The only thing that has prevented me from committing suicide is my boyfriend (I'm in a long distance relationship). I've gone to therapy and nothing has changed. I feel like I'm wasting my time while other people my age live their lives happily and they are fulfilling their dreams.
I want to start a new university career and run away from my abusive family but I'm afraid to share an apartment because my social anxiety.