Childhood traumas screw you up and I'm a walking example of that. I grew up in a dysfunctional family, both parents were alcoholics, sexually molested by a pedophile family member, and I think the final straw was when the only friends I had both dumped me and stopped talking to me. That's really when the depression started, and the anxiety followed after and got really severe. I got to the point where I stopped trusting people and just stayed away from them as a defense mechanism to protect myself.
Now I'm older, and realizing I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone... I'm trying to trust people more and give people chances, but I'm sick of getting f**ked over and disappointed. People always seem to abandon me at some point... so it's like 'why bother'?