As usual when I came to, there she was holding my hand
I have begun to accept this now; especially seeing I have asked her to be with me, holding my hand, when I am given ECT on Wednesday
She never comes onto me on ward. Obviously she knows she knows we will probably be seen. But away from the ward? She is always full on declaring her love for me
She says she wants sex with me; but there are two reasons this will never happen:
1) Being physically castrated, pre TG, I have no sex drive; especially receiving estrogen & thus diminishing my testerone
2) I am in a LTR with my partner
Still, when we are in the sea she kisses me, holding me tightly as she pushes her tongue in my mouth.
She has worn me down so I respond to her
My mate, whose office I am in online, says to just shag her
I haven't told him I am pre-TG, without the equipment to satisfy her
When I go full TG, I will have a penectomy, so I can be genitally become female
Of course, depending how my ECT goes
While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man, wishing he could talk softly in her ear...
While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND, & INSULT her,
there's a man flirting with her, & reminding her, how wonderful she is.
While you HURT your woman,
there's a man wishing he could show her love
While you make your woman CRY,
there's a man stealing smiles from her.