Today things went too far
On the beach she kissed me & without thinking I kissed her back. Our tongues entwined, things were going way to far. I tried to resist, but she held me tightly as we kissed
She even released her top, pulling my hand to them. She had worn me down to accepting her
She even tried to pull my hand to her bikini bottoms but that was way far to far. It was that which made me reject her
Now we are having coffee & cake in a beach café. She is looking at me questionably, but I'm unable to hold eye contact with her
I believe she realises she took things way to far for me and that I feel extremely uncomfortable with her; especially her pulling my hand to her bikini bottoms and virtually underneath & my feeling her there
I told her I am not comfortable with her breasts; and as far as inside her; that is way too far & if she does it again I will go straight to her line manager
She asked "Really? I don't think so"
I told her if she pushes me too far I will
I believe she is taking that on board, then things between us will be ok. But for how long?
I am seriously hoping, on Wednesday, I don't come out the other side
Only thing stopping me is my intense love for my partner.
My nurse has asked me if I still want her with me when I receive my ET
I told her I don't know. Let's see how things between us pan out
While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man, wishing he could talk softly in her ear...
While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND, & INSULT her,
there's a man flirting with her, & reminding her, how wonderful she is.
While you HURT your woman,
there's a man wishing he could show her love
While you make your woman CRY,
there's a man stealing smiles from her.