i'm very sorry to hear of your situation.
my circumstances are different, though i can imagine how difficult this must be for you to live with.
There are many people here on the forums who share a similar story to you, i am sure you will receive some posts from them. you're not alone in this.
Some people will always need help. That doesn’t mean they’re not worth helping
– Meera Reed
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and stars; you have a right to be here.