Withdrawals are supposed to be just awful, but i find it works so good for anxiety. It seems you already like pills that make you feel good, so this isn't gonna be an exception. I find only the powerful stuff really works for bad enough anxiety like alcohol, benzos, and MAOIs. With your history id be careful. What i did to avoid benzo withdrawals was get my 30mg of clonazepam a month and have them finished by about week 3 and take a week off because they pharmacy would only give out another 30 once a month had passed. Give em a try and see if you can have some self control. You will also develop tolerance and possibly need to increase dose at some point.