Day 5

Felt super depressed and restless this afternoon. Eyes were watering like crazy and felt like crying but I didn't cry.

Got the tired but restless thing again. Had to have a lie down on my bed because I felt so tired but then I couldn't stop wanting to wring my hands, stretch out, yawn, close my eyes really tightly etc.

Thankfully this has now stopped. The excessive yawning is still happening though. Libido has totally gone too (all SSRI's do this from research).

Also I'd say escitalopram is probably a pretty dangerous drug to give to someone who is depressed/suicidal since i've felt worse since taking it (I'm taking it for GAD/SA (doc isn't sure which at the moment)). This could be a dangerous trigger for someone who can't control their thoughts/actions.

Edit: Forgot to add I did sleep better last night but I did have 1 beer before bed which helped immensely.

Also wanted to add I am still noticing my anxiety decreasing slightly (still not sure if this is placebo at this stage) but willing to continue with this even with the bad side effects as it does seem to be doing some good (not overthinking conversations etc).