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    Hey, It's been years and I haven't been on SAS. There's been some ups and downs. How are you? You reached out to me a long time ago. I hope your doing okay brotha. Message me.

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    Don't know why it would do that. I'm chronically tired, though I don't think I can blame it on testosterone.

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    As for why I haven't been on, selling the old dump -- for a stunning $198,000 (on a one year land contract) and taking care of my very own money pit have been keeping me busy.

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    As for ED, testosterone is not some magic erection maker.

    My former brother who f***ed me over and is now referred to by me as Satan or the Beast, still has to inject Trimix into his dick to get it up. An adequate dose of Trimix will make damn near anything hard without any need for sexual stimulation. In fact, guys who use it regularly complain about how they'd just like it to go down so they could sleep after nailing the wife very well indeed.

    Oral meds like Cialis actually demand arousal to work and there is no realistic chance that they will ever produce that mythical 4+ hour boner the TV ads warn of. Trimix, on the other hand, could very well land you in the ER with an erection that refuses to go down.

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    Regarding Nuvigil: I'm unable to stockpile it as my insurance company doesn't allow me to fill it as early as they do with other meds.

    The only bottle of Nuvigil I have is the one I'm currently using, and if I had extra I push it up to 2 pills a day, so there will never be extra to sell.

    I had to fight my insurance company just to get one pill a day, which costs them $6,000 per year. Don't let the price fool you into thinking it's magic because it's expensive. It's ordinary and just obscenely priced -- and that's the generic price!

    You can readily find both Provigil & Nuvigil for sale on line. They have to be the easiest prescriptions on Earth to get illicitly. Even more plentiful than the vendors of Soma.

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    I get it for excessive daytime drowsiness (of unknown origin -- though sleep apnea was ruled out last year). Due to being on an MAOI, I can't take Ritalin or amphetamines to make me more alert, so my insurance company makes a medical exception allowing me to have Nuvigil (or Provigil). I choose Nuvigil as it lasts longer, though still doesn't come close to lasting all day. Which means it isn't at all likely to cause insomnia, since it wore off long before you'd go to bed if you take it upon waking.

    If you really want Nuvigil/Provigil, I can't think of any other drug that is more readily available online. If the stuff sold online legit or not? Well, that's a mystery I don't know the answer to.

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    Sadly, I will never be able to sell you any Nuvigil. Other drugs I can stockpile as I fill them as quickly as I can, but my insurance company appears to only want to refill Nuvigil when I'm damn near out.

    As you likely recall, they didn't even want to pay for Nuvigil (which has since gone generic) as it's so damn expensive & basically anybody could benefit from it whether they have some diagnosable condition to indicate it or not. After all, who wouldn't benefit from being more alert & able to do better on tests (a proxy for mental function).

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    Yes, I still take Nuvigil which just went generic.

    It actually cost me less as a brand name as the maker had a coupon that brought my copay down to $5.

    Now, as a generic, it costs me $10 just like any other generic drug. Though even in generic form, it still costs my insurance company more than $500 per month.

    My insurance premium is $490 a month, so I'm already a money-loser for them with that drug alone. Still cheap compared to my AndroGel which has gone up in price. Evidently, $900 wasn't enough for what is effectively hand sanitizer, so they pushed the price to over $1,000.

    I probably have $10,000 worth of drugs in my filing cabinet. See, that's what I need all that heavy-duty weaponry to protect my valuables. Also have at least $2,500 in cash sitting around. Though I don't think anyone wants to f*** with a "gun nut" who actually knows how to shoot (with is especially easy with a green laser sight) on a Beretta loaded with 31 9mm hollow points.

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    I'm forced to take Nuvigil for excessive daytime drowsiness. My insurance company didn't want to pay, but I fought them and I won. Now they can pay more for one drug than I pay in monthly premiums. As if the $12,000 a year they're paying for my AndroGel isn't quite enough (my copay is $120 per YEAR).

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    Yeah, I'm quite a hoarder, both in real life & in cyberspace. I'm always struggling to keep my message limit under 1,500.

    If they raised the limit to 2,000, I'd then be a packrat with damn near 2,000 messages.

    Keep in mind that you can always e-mail me. You have me e-mail, don't you?

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    Why are criminals so attracted to these gun free zones?

    Golly, that's a total mystery. If you have a rabidly anti-gun neighbor would it be mean to post the following sign in your yard:

    "I'm heavily armed. My neighbor is afraid of guns."
    Please make your choice wisely.

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    Keep in mind that the smallest needles in the world are used.

    I've injected ketamine into my thigh using a 28 gauge needle, normally used for insulin. I'd do it again if only I could find a reliable ketamine dealer. With 28s you have to be careful not to bend or break them because they're so small.

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    Keep in mind these are the smallest needles you've ever seen. They make a flu shot needle look huge by comparison.

    When it comes to shots, I've injected ketamine once with a 28 gauge needle in my thigh. Such needles are normally used for insulin and are so thin you have to be careful not to bend or break them. Wouldn't bother me at all to do it again.

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    Parnate gave me some pretty sweet euphoria but I started getting this weird neck paralysis every morning so I stopped. Hopefully Nardil gives that euphoria.

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    Hey man. I remember a year or so ago you were excited about getting your hands on Nardil. How'd it work out for you? I was on Parnate last year, then went off due to some side effects, and I should be getting Nardil in a couple days.

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    What strain of pot do you use? I decided to place an order for TrainWreck today, a pot that's supposed to be potently stimulating (so the exact opposite of what you imagine a stoner to be).

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    Nardil isn't the last thing. There is still Emsam & Marplan. I also want to try the 5 remaining benzos that aren't sleeping pills.

    There are also ketamine infusion clinics. Though I'd rather inject myself at vast lower cost. A ketamine infusion costs $600-$1,000. 100 vials of 10mL ketamine cost a bit more than $300 and a 28 gauge insulin syringe to inject it with is only one cent.

    Pot question: how much do you buy at one time to maintain freshness. It's $2,200 per pound. It gets vastly cheaper as you buy more. 1 ounce is $300, but that 2nd ounce is only half as much at $150. I'm thinking half a pound seems reasonable.

    I'm guessing you'd buy less than me simply because you have less money.

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    Next time I'm buying a stevia strain as I don't need to be put to sleep. I understand there are indica/stevia hybrids too.

    If you see any strain that sounds like it would be good for my condition, feel free to point it out.

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    Actually I'm planning to ask my GP about metformin for weight control the next time I see him, which will probably be in a couple months.

    Adderall is totally useless for weight control. When I took amphetamines they'd kill appetite, but then I'd eat a day's worth of food after they wore off late in the day. Thus, no weight loss.

    Keep in mind that I have a script for Provigil -- actually for 2 pills a day -- and weight loss/appetite control are two documented side effects of it.

    I'm planning to fight my SA with research chemical benzos where you can literally have all you want. For example: http://www.rapidchems.com/en/benzodiazepines/631-2mg-chloro-diazepam-pellets.html 50,000 is 137 pills a day for a year -- think that will be enough?

    Also going to pursue pot: www.medicineman.is
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